Mental Capacity

May 3, 2021

Mental capacity was never meant to be static.
Depending on circumstances,
our mental capacity expands and shrinks.
I did not know this.
It completely opened up my world.
As someone who enjoyed being proactive,
my mental capacity shrunk drastically for the first time in my life.
When I tried to push myself past it,
I would end up feeling frustrated.
It was a relentless cycle.

Fast forward a season onwards and thankfully things have gotten much better.
Somehow only a few of my close friends notice that.
It’s amazing because energy really doesn’t lie.

I have not returned to its former glory.
For a moment, I was upset but why should I disregard all my progress?
I’m still trying to navigate this journey we call life.

I’m not where I want to be yet but the good news is I’m not where I used to be.
I don’t have to see the finish line.
I just have to keep going.
One step at a time.
One day at a time.

I probably have a lot that I need/want to do but unable to.
That’s OKAY!
My mental capacity has probably shrunken.
Acknowledge and respect it by being kind and patient with it.

I got this!